Mixed up feelings

,,Why then? Why, explain! Two days before you were saying again thank you with a high pitched voice after I tried to pay close attention to anything you do so you remember a positive trait! So we can go on positive again!" ,,Why do I need to explain? Did you explain in the past?" ,,It was 3years ago." ,,As more the time overlaps, more thoughts and overthinking does. You owe me money for my therapy sessions I took." I take my cigarette out: ,,Want any?" ,,Didn't you wanted to be a police?" He says in the officer sweatshirt. ,,Do you want or not?" ,,Answer" ,,what do you think? Why didn't I chose the job?: ,,Because you never did anything for it." ,,you never changed right." ,,Do*, sorry" ,,Comes from a man who pulled his sleeves up on college. Before he would have never made it" I laugh ,,you are so rude, you never change" ,,I still stayed smart in my brain I noticed. I say stuff that are true, You say untrue stuff and play dumb, Try to make up my mind I was never enough. As if there is not a construct that no human can be enough" ,,You can do something to no more live on streets" I tapped my cigaret on the ground. ,,heh", I kick the light it made: ,,I thought as a kid when I was younger it will caught fire when it's not shut by foot. That's why I always did it for adults. Kinda reminds me of how I kept with you" ,,That's what I mean. You never changed. Today you are again ignorant and stubborn and look at me with these evil eyes, But the next day you are so kind" ,,Oh? You really think that when you told me in the past my bag is on the ground you took some "effort" to make things right?" ,,Ah, so now you have ears?" ,,I am just mimicing you. I always struggled, should I just act by being myself or the ignorant character. But revenge was never that what I wanted. I wanted communication. And since I never got it, And never got it, And never got it" I throw the cigarette in the trashcan: ,,I realized why not just showing you yourself?" I smile bright ,,I wouldn't have fell inlove with you if you haven't had some traits like me right? So I also wasn't fake. An officer can not even look through that?" I smile ,,I am not like that. Every person makes mistakes" ,,Oh? So you admit it?" ,,Yes, sure. But you still are keeping yourself short" ,,I will show you till I die" He looks away, while he takes his water bottle and gives it to her: ,,no reason is for that the reason you ever deserved. That's why I always said nothing. By that I ate me up and you", he says