Mixed Feelings

The fire that others fear is the heat i long to bear... I usually have despair but anyway who cares?? This life cant be so fair Everything is going wrong and its kinda taking long. I feel like an old worn out shoe i am not very new. . Its like am in the wrong place and everything is happening in some kind of race... Keeping up with things today, is harder than my words can say for every time i think am strong there i fall on many thorns... and all i can tell me is that am Human so i pick up my personal pieces and rise again.. Life is like a maze so i just sit here and gaze i sit all by myself for no one can understand better than i .. Am amazed..... Anyway, my wrist is the prisoner holding in my life's blood. I ponder the emptiness of my own existence... its like nobody loves me.... I must belong somewhere i need to show who i really am but mayne...... there's too many words i can't spell my slick slippery heel is a banana peel Maybe someday i will heal from these feelings down here No one will understand, definitely not in this land....