Mistakes

I cant help but to think of myself as a screw up on so many levels. I always make mistakes, not always the same, Different ones now and again. And I try to learn and improve from each one of them. I don’t really know what to do, it's unknown... it seems as if I am “mistake prone.” I don’t even know how to be, I disappoint everyone including me. Hell I don’t even know how to act, I walk around with a smile as my mask. I lie to everyone including myself, I say I’m “okay” and “fine”... What else? I figure if I keep this mask of mine on, Maybe I’ll believe it after a little time has gone. I'm tired of saying “I don’t know” and “sorry,” but I honestly don’t know what else to say, I feel as though everything's my fault... I’m to blame. I disappoint everyone in this stupid life always. There's always someone I want to please, but every time... Someone's not happy...