Mistakes

I make a lot of mistakes in life Sometimes they hurt the people I love But they always hurt me in the end I know I’m human but still I overreact and overthink a lot I’m prone to hiding feelings or bottling them up Lately the glass has been shattering often And I often can’t control it like I want to Its so easy for me to become unstable I’ve been thinking about therapy a lot So I can stop feeling alone in fighting this Because I do truly feel temporary in everyones lives I thought I was more capable this time around But I went and proved myself wrong I lost control and I lashed out at you And I know you didn’t deserve it at all I’m so sorry that I get like this I hate it so much And its not your fault in the slightest I just panicked and felt unwanted Thought of crashing my car because of it Part of me hopes you find a way to read this But most of me still doesn’t want to share it with you I don’t want you to see me as the failure I see myself In every aspect of my life I’m sorry if I hurt you or made things worse I try to stop it but sometimes It creeps up Other times it blows up too quick to catch I blame myself for not being stronger I still wish you well and wish the best for you Id understand if you don’t want me there to see it But I’ll always be a call away for you I just need time to fix whats still screwed up in me