Mistakes

I make a lot of mistakes in life
Sometimes they hurt the people I love
But they always hurt me in the end
I know I’m human but still

I overreact and overthink a lot
I’m prone to hiding feelings or bottling them up
Lately the glass has been shattering often
And I often can’t control it like I want to

Its so easy for me to become unstable
I’ve been thinking about therapy a lot
So I can stop feeling alone in fighting this
Because I do truly feel temporary in everyones lives

I thought I was more capable this time around
But I went and proved myself wrong
I lost control and I lashed out at you
And I know you didn’t deserve it at all

I’m so sorry that I get like this I hate it so much
And its not your fault in the slightest
I just panicked and felt unwanted 
Thought of crashing my car because of it

Part of me hopes you find a way to read this
But most of me still doesn’t want to share it with you
I don’t want you to see me as the failure I see myself 
In every aspect of my life

I’m sorry if I hurt you or made things worse
I try to stop it but sometimes It creeps up 
Other times it blows up too quick to catch
I blame myself for not being stronger

I still wish you well and wish the best for you
Id understand if you don’t want me there to see it
But I’ll always be a call away for you
I just need time to fix whats still screwed up in me
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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