Mistake

What am I doing wrong?
i try so hard but it never seems to matter,
my face is always replaced with a big fake smile.
my feelings that surround me are not worthwhile.
i know that i could be a wonderful person but all i do is count my mistakes,
i hope and pray and try to see if i have what it takes
to stop being such a terrible person.

i meet someone and we hit it off
great friends within an hour
Then i said some wrong things and now and i feel devoured by my mistakes.

i guess i just want hope and joy is that too hard to ask
maybe I'll love myself but that is a hard task.
i know that i can be a great person but my feelings are in the way of my arrogance and failed romance and deep impounding love for the world. 
But its just a fantasy that ill never reach.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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December 16, 2016 at 9:19 PM
No matter. How you struggle within a cocoon. You do not emerge until it is time. Thanks for sharing. Aaron
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