Misery

misery should be renamed life because i know it's the way i live stuck under a black cloud struck with mourning and grief deep feelings wrapped in a blanket that should comfort but only burns in the deepest well with ungranted wishes hope and faith that's been demolished what should i believe when i'm covered in this disease they call freedom in this trap they call my mind the place...... i hold the most darkness my heart should shine with light but all it does is fight off the demons i call emotions the soul just a hole emptiness i want to devour what makes me smile but there's not enough to make me full when all i have are my words that make my outsides not so tough because i want to release my troubled blood and bleed on you so you understand just a fraction of my pain the aching i feel destroying this tender shell of a body forcing me to age with every stage i've gone through in my short years this world is seen as a beautiful place but i just can't not without love not when all there is is fear when all i hear is my own stupidity floating inside of me i'm like a tree among others swaying in the wind but i'm just still if i could only find the will to be who i need if i could only hold my own hand i could march on and believe that this life is more than just misery