Miserable Wretch

I search for serenity hopelessly Deprived of happiness and peace This brain consumed by misery Often seems to be my worst enemy These toxic thoughts drive me insane Each one contrived by a sickly brain The result is overwhelming pain Attempts at self help end in vain Each struggle ends in crushing defeat My unstable emotions get the best of me My mind is plauged by this disease Which results from these broken dreams My health declines a bit more each day An infirmity is coming to seal my fate I turn to god with one last request I long to laugh once more before death