Mess Of Me

   I am a mess
Of good intentions
Gone wrong
I strike matches upon myself
To keep others warm
     And now my whole damn world is on fire
I try to put it out
The flames get higher
I traded truth
To be betrayed by liars
And silenced my needs
While fulfilling their desires
       The dam breaks
And the waters of my sorrow 
pour free
The lake is now full 
of all the debris
   The broken pieces 
Of my life
Blown to pieces
Like dynamite
That I never meant to ignite
An accidental suicide
       The lake will eventually 
Come to dry
As will the tears 
my eyes have cried
   I've wasted too much time
Swallowing my pride
Trying to keep everyone satisfied
Pretending I'm alright
Waging wars inside my mind
    I've destroyed myself
Along with my physical 
And mental health
I wish I could put my feelings
Up on a shelf
     I've creating my own living hell
                      I have made a mess of me
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April 6, 2024 at 12:45 AM
This poetry resonates with me, loved this one, Aysha
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