Mental Pain

Look at me I’m stuck between love and hate. Waiting on God to decide my fate. His answer unhurried. I’m getting worried. My faith evaporates like thin ice. This love has eaten such a huge slice Of my heart. Stare at me if you must. Wondering if love made me blind. The path is so dark in my mind. I can’t see. Enlighten me. How do I find the route to her heart? The two locations are so far apart. It could take years. Gaze at my insanity. Talking to myself, arguing with my heart. Telling him it’s too late, let her depart. My heart replies. “Your decision is not wise”. Now I’m stuck, I don’t know what to do. Where do I start, I don’t have a clue? Stress meet depression. Without my medicine, this wound won’t heal. She was my morning and evening pill. Reminding myself why I loved her at first. So much mental pain, let me take a rest.