Melancholy Me

Melancholy me, since Kelly's gone away Far beyond the sea, and gone from everyday Stage by stage I've wept, but finally, I see What I must now accept; a melancholy me It follows and it looms, a threat to my clear sky Though never quite consumes, insists that I comply She's not for me to find, no path for me to track So rain, I will not mind, if I can't have her back Now happiness and joy, are never felt alone The grief did not destroy, but left an undertone It’s useless to contest, what lingers underneath I'm trying, at my best, to walk beside the grief And maybe I am jaded, but I am past denial The anger has since faded; I've learned again to smile I steady more each day, but walk the tightest rope And mind my every sway, through threats by wind, I cope Relentless my implore, and pointless it would seem She went, she is no more, to see her is to dream I begged her not leave, yet still, she did not stay forever, now I'll grieve, my melancholy way I'll live despite her death, as long as I embrace What’s come of her last breath, and breathing in her place Because it's mine to keep, it's just my cross to bear I'll bury it down deep, but always, it is there And though I did not choose, it's what I would prefer For I can't bear to lose, my memory of her The pain is in my heart, means Kelly too, shall be... Because she’s just a part, of melancholy me.