Melancholy Me

Melancholy me, since Kelly's gone away Far beyond the sea, and out of every day Stage by stage I've wept, but finally, I see What I must accept; a melancholy me It follows and it looms, a threat to my clear sky Though never quite consumes, insists that I comply She's not for me to find, no path for me to track So rain I will not mind, if I can't have her back My happiness and joy, are never felt alone This grief did not destroy, but left an undertone Useless to contest, what lingers underneath So I will try my best, to balance in this grief Perhaps I am jaded, but I am past denial Anger has since faded; I've learned again to smile I'll steady more each day, my given grief tightrope And mind my every sway, when wind threatens my cope Relentless my implore, and pointless it would seem She went, she is no more, to see her is to dream I begged her not leave, and still, she did not stay For that, I'll ever grieve, my melancholy way Born by final breath, now breathing in her place I'll live despite her death, as long as I embrace Because it's mine to keep, it's just my cross to bear I'll bury it down deep, but always, it is there And though I did not choose, it's what I would prefer I cannot bear to lose, my memory of her While pain is in my heart, Kelly too, shall be... Because she is a part, of melancholy me.