Me Alone

A story to tell 								
my own
single but dialectical
listen, 	will you?

Me alone! (This is the title)

When I am I 
What I can say, what different would I be?
For example,
( I would be - alone,  deranged, restless within myself)

But
When I am not I 
(Meaning, something related to heart stuffs)
Here, I would become somebody else.
It's alright
I would be something different:
( Empty, Joyful, Mad. I would smile, dance, talk, be happy, be kidding,)
I would be
Just like a man.

Now I can say,
It is the heart
that can become me.
My god
and, 
It is the heart itself, that takes me 
away from myself.
He is also my god

Mind;
Myself, grows in my mind,
destroys me arbitarily,
pulls me with strings of false love affair,
breaks me in half 
slices me in half
still - I am , I remain
a shape, with body and heart
but, selfish abundantly-
I want to reveal something here
my things
of those right moments

 That hints of arrival in (my heart), wakes up as it wants (heart), and walks far away from me,

In an different environment,
In an special circumstances
In memory! Imagination! Tightly together! Together!
Amazing!
Its all soft
Its all love
Its all flowers
Its all water
Its all you
Its all rosy
Its all me

Shook me oops!
I am here!  I am the same ! My own I.
The same, staring alone!
What happened here or there?
or her!... and where... What is not here?...Disappeared... Where did it go?..  What heppened?
What have my eyes seen?
My mind in every possible corner! and my heart!
Or in my eyes! someone..
Or in the air?                Nothing,               empty      This is zero!
What is this?
Sweat without any work! In my forehead?
Fatigue without any struggle! In my body?
Racing heart beat!
Reaction without any action!
The struggle between me and me within myself ---
I am astonished!!	 							12/05/2020

Copyright © Rajkumar Pudasaini | Year Posted 2020

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