Madness

I see the stage is set, ready for me to act out my fantasies
I’m not happy, even in my own world; suicidal tendencies
How I would love this world to crumble, smash me to bits!
I am starting to go numb, crazy, and throw fits!

Hate just fills my eyes, red is my vision
I’d love to drive my car; cause a major collision
People who stare at me in horrible ways
Like I’m some kind of sick dog in a cage

I sneak past the guards, I’m a shape shifter
I fly under the radar, I remain unseen
It doesn’t matter anyway
Even in the shower I just feel so unclean!

My hair is falling out; this stress is way too much
I’m losing all my radiance and with it all my magic touch
I was too young to lose it all so quick
I have ruined my life and all I feel is sick!

Between my medicines and my constant weeping
Looks like death is close behind; my soul he is reaping
I see a shadow all the time, it follows me around
The spirit truly evil, it is madness I have found!

There is always a cloud above my head
Raining black ash which suffocates
Everywhere I go, even while I’m in my bed
I can’t breathe right as it asphyxiates 

Choking from this toxic cloud
It’s only a matter of time before I fall 
Never will I see the day I am proud
 Madness surrounds me as I walk down this hall

As a wave of anguish turns into more
Depressed thoughts I once tried to ignore
As the pressure builds I collapse to the floor
Life leaves me rotten, tattered, and sore

As the glowing light fades away
Dimmer and darker becomes my day
As I lay here thinking of what to say
The words can’t come out; I am now dismay

Copyright © Matthew Corbin | Year Posted 2017

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