Loving is learning how to walk again

Did not my eyes got to open? Or was I seeing something else? Was I not watching yours oh right Forgotting your other half I just wanted to love you But you did not let me Weren't you fine with it? How can you leave me like that, leaking from the side, my sweat from my scalp is leaking the facade. When someone else lead me light through the window, and it even reached my toes, Why couldn't love, love again? Why didn't I wanted to stand up, Stand up Again? Why do I feel good lying in spiders poop. I feel comfort in smell. Have I got color blind? I did not mind open my eyes. Why do I smile and laugh, when there Is someones punch on the side of my brain? I want to lay in here and stay. The garden which got built, I saw it. But everyone is enjoying it. I am not everyone.