Loving is a Drug

I’m on a nasty drug Disguised as kindly beauty You’d never find my dealer; I’m the one who sells it to me Yes, I’m the dealer of my love Spilled those pills straight down my heart I never feel I’ve had enough Yet you’ve broke me since the start HowI wish I could stop taking you But love’s an opioid for crying Every day I’m longing, drooling, too When inside I know they’re lying It's as if I have forgotten All the pain you’ve put me through My mind goes numb, my eyes turn dumb Bam! My hands connect with you And within your cusp I pry your vial I know it's full of dust… But it gleams like gold within the moment My eyes see through its rust I’ll unscrew your rusty bottle And my heart of longing sinks My desire stole the best of me Your perfume suddenly will stink Every time you blew my candles out To windy winter blues But I can not stop my heart from beating So it's something I must do So much love locked in my heart-shaped vault No one to share it with but you To be free from you means no more love How can I make it through?