Love Doesn'T Exist

I always seem to lose whenever there's emotions attached been there and done that and I don't feel like going back From now on my heart is cold and ignorance is bliss Now I'm living in a world where love doesn't exist I've been keeping myself to myself lately There's a lot of weight on my shoulders They say Life's a ... Well I promise I can hold her I can do this by myself I don't need you to save me Some will tell me there's no call for my rage I used to be a private person until I put it all on a page All of my hurt and emotions just came spilling out I played my hand even if I didn’t like the hand that life was dealing out I'm a good guy with some bad traits I know I'm wrong for using Courvoisier and strippers to make it through my bad days Walking through hell, but my cold heart keeps me at the right temperature I battled some of the biggest demons, so now the devil looks miniature I've had love, lost it and survived so I don't need it Had hopes of writing a story with this girl just for her to say she wouldn't read it So I learned to stop relying on others I've got my own shoulders so I won't be crying on others You're supposed to treasure love, but I can't open my chest I'm keeping the little piece of my heart safe, because the world broke the rest Lost my biological sperm donor when I was 14 and didn't even cry So if you don't see them around me anymore there's a reason why I made it out of hell when they expected me to burn Now the smoke has cleared and it's my turn I've protected my heart so Cupid will miss I'm happy by myself now I'm living in a world where love doesn't exist