Love and loss
#Love_and_loss
Still to date, my emotions are huanted
by a reality that doesn't wanna settle, daunted.
I lay wide wake in the middle of the night
Contemplating, my mind flooded by more questions than answers.
Questioning my capabilities of loving,
Was I harsh, was I toxic, was I not enough?
More questions piles, for the one with answers
Chose to leave, without saying a word.
I wanna cry my heart out but I have shed all the tears in me already, nothing just comes out, anymore.
I know I'm not perfect but my flaws doesn't mean I never tried to better myself daily. All I think, it's worse than having no answers. Caving within, this wound only heals from outside, constantly revived with every thought of why, rips me apart.
On my own, I just can't patch it together by myself. Thought love was about opening hearts to each other, confiding with each other, speaking our thoughts and pouring our emotions but it's clear,
I was the only one with that mindset.
How selfish of you, to bang the lid of my heart,
I say selfish, maybe you were never part of us,
All was just in my mind, hoped it would be contagious to you and maybe, reciprocated.
You left with your silence, a mutilating thread to my sanity, my healing, my self trust, yet you never cared, nor thought twice about me and my feelings.
Denied me answers but wicked when you cut my fatherhood cord, took everything I have prayed for my entire life. You hatred turned you evil, made you a demon, I don't wish to cross path with. Hope you sleep well at night knowing the intensity of pain you left me with to overcome.
Hope to wake up from this nightmare,
The trauma in my soul, this driping blood in my heart.
Hope heaven forgives you on my behalf.
#Poetic_Ink
Copyright © Poetic Ink MorepjeKO | Year Posted 2025
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