Lost the Plot To Find a Way

Do not read if offended by human imagination as this will appear heretical to religious people, and perhaps nonsensical to everyone else As far as I can perceive this universe began the moment I was born and became self aware An unknown infinity of time had passed by, up to that point, all the way back to the Big Bang or whatever caused it, but I have absolutely no concept of this whatsoever, Simply because I did not exist, until I was born in other words you could, argue that I was dead. Ok so I’ve lived my life here on earth and passed away Right I’m dead again, and the second I die another infinity of time will go by instantaneously, right to the end of this universe and beyond, But again I will have absolutely no concept of this, Why, because I’m dead Now it appears I’ve been dead twice, as I explained above, which brings an inescapable consequence, I may also have lived twice, perhaps a multitude of times, through cause and causality. Time does not exist outside of our life, hence without our lives, there can be nothing to be aware of, but we already know from our life, that there is something but this can only be experienced whilst we’re alive, We can of course live through other peoples death, but not our own, which also means, we cannot experience anything after we die. and cannot be aware when we’re dead, just like before we where born. So we always seem alive, from our point of view, “we’re immortal by our very own perception” I mean let’s face it, if we lived for eternity the only escape from this endless pointless scenario would be a permanent death, But what if the slate is wiped clean by our death, and we live again oblivious of our previous life, infinity would become bearable, and overcome permanence. Both are part and package of the same parcel and they must coexist to close the perpetual loop Hence overcoming infinity and permanence depends on death, and vice versa, So what started the Big Bang Its entirely possible there was a supreme entity, in a cosmos that preceded our one A God, that got so overwhelmed by endlessness decided to finish everything off once and for all, by collapsing and squeezing every existing particle in it’s cosmos out of existence, But the task proved to be just beyond its power, it was almost at the point of squeezing infinity and everything into nothingness, when it died under the mammoth strain of the task, causing everything to rebound uncontrollably, into what we call the (Big Bang) which kick started this universe, and we’re all a consequence of that cataclysmic moment It’s possible another supreme entity is right now evolving through our intelligence and technology and one day will again attain omnipotence which will also incur an inevitable infinite existence, but again will try destroy everything in desperation to escape infinities endlessness Perhaps with the same failed result as its predecessors so it’s possible we’ll keep doing this ‘life thing’ over and over perhaps differently, perhaps almost the same, but will remain oblivious to previous cycles, Except for them persistent curious echoes, that for some reason never go away deaths oblivion may indeed be our saviour from infinity By David Kavanagh