Lost In Unhappiness

I have lived a wonderful life truly so blessed. So why is this unhappiness rivaling my mind. I feel lost and abandoned within this soul. I feel that I have lived such an obtrusive lie. There is nothing that I can do for myself. So I ride along each an every day so obsessed. With hopes of my dream after the end of my bind, This is my dilemma, my eternal flights toll. I could set around and weep, mourn and cry. Then I would only fall upon the pity of myself. I could never wager living death and be so depressed. So I write words with tenderness, love, light confessed. Words of erotic flavors that bend and unwind, Spiritual revelations to reach a special goal, Though they all may not be that good, I try. Please do not be forsaken for the trial of myself. This sadness, challenges me to triumph my quest.