Lost

Wanting to enjoy myself I drink alone Wanting a home I imagine, alone That my family, though mine Is not my own Somehwere far away Maybe on a distant planet Is a place i can call mine I loose myself in a lullabye My heart, deep in my heart, locked in a pace only booze can get to, I dream that this song is true. How i want to belong To a family far away Where pain is a memory Where loyalty isn't imaginary Where love is a given Where my heart can be alive Brightest And the most sacred without being the most painful. Only when drunk can i loose myself enough to know, how truly i want with all i Am Pain included Life of hardship included Being the leader of a war included True. How lost must i be, to in my most lucid moments Wish i was an alien How crazy is that? But even as logic knows this My heart yearns For what will probably never be. For what my heart wants with all it is, to be. But, instead..i drink alone. And alone, in the deepest recesses of my heart I will likely always be. Homesick for a place that isn't real Yearning for a family that isn't real. I....heh, I, my friends, am so screwed