Lost
Wanting to enjoy myself
I drink alone
Wanting a home
I imagine, alone
That my family, though mine
Is not my own
Somehwere far away
Maybe on a distant planet
Is a place i can call mine
I loose myself in a lullabye
My heart, deep in my heart, locked in a pace only booze can get to,
I dream that this song is true.
How i want to belong
To a family far away
Where pain is a memory
Where loyalty isn't imaginary
Where love is a given
Where my heart can be alive
Brightest
And the most sacred without being the most painful.
Only when drunk can i loose myself enough to know, how truly i want with all i Am
Pain included
Life of hardship included
Being the leader of a war included
True.
How lost must i be, to in my most lucid moments
Wish i was an alien
How crazy is that?
But even as logic knows this
My heart yearns
For what will probably never be.
For what my heart wants with all it is, to be.
But, instead..i drink alone.
And alone, in the deepest recesses of my heart
I will likely always be.
Homesick for a place that isn't real
Yearning for a family that isn't real.
I....heh, I, my friends, am so screwed
Copyright © Daniexelle Eledwhen | Year Posted 2017
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