Lost

Sitting here all alone. So sick and tired of being lonely. Sick and tired of myself. Being myself. It's time for a change. Of this I do not disagree. I don't feel right. Different from the rest. Feeling left behind. Just so sick of the hurt and pain that I feel. All kept bottled up inside. Just so far deep down. No left for room. So much God damn anger screaming to come out. Try so hard to scream but nothing ever comes out. The tears still run. Out of nowhere they leak. Cooling down my face. Don't know what I'm doing. Don't know where to go. Starting to just not care anymore. Nothing no one not you or me. Just not anything. Do my best but seem to fail. There is a change coming. You will see. I will be no more. Need to find my map. Find my way. I'm just walking around. So very lost.