Losing Who I Am
Pushing in
Surrounding me
They always
expect me
to be something
more than I am
I'm supposed to be
an angel
a precious perfect jewel
a flawless child
And while they all
tell me to be
something else...
something not me...
I just bow my head
and nod quietly
and pretend to listen
and pretend to change
But inside
the walls close in
swallowing me
and who I really am
disappears
I have to do everything
right
and I am supposed to do
everything perfectly
And why don't they understand
that maybe sometimes
I can't do it?
Why don't they see
who I am
who I want to be?
But still I be submissive
as they pressure me
to be better
to try more
to be
what they tell me to
I change for them
because they ask me to
and I listen to them
and I let them shape
who I am
So I become
an object
to try to create
in a bigger
and better image
And the walls crush me
and inside
I'm crying
and dying...
They tell me
to always work harder
and so I sigh
say yes
and forget that
I'm in there somewhere
The real me.
Just begging
to be let out...
Copyright © Marie Viloria | Year Posted 2011
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