Losing Game

I don't know what to do I feel so confused What's the big deal if I win or lose Wander who would notice wander who would care They would probably be happy with the space to spare I feel a waste of space and lonely inside Wander if they heard me of a night when I cried I'm not a strong person I feel I have lost Of the will to be happy and death was my cost I love you all to pieces I never meant to hurt But what I feel inside is as horrible as dirt Please don't be sad as it was my choice Deep in my soul there was a screaming voice I felt horrible yet frightened but bad inside I had no dignity willpower nor pride My time has come a journey to a place We're I know I'll be happy and have a smile on my face