Los Angeles

After we met
I thought we really had something,
Really hit it off.
It wasn’t the words we spoke,
The easy fluorescent trail they made.
Maybe it was the Japanese lantern
Glowing over your bare shoulder
Or the smile you threw
To the side- 
To someone.
Or maybe it was the cool damp air,
Slight seduction of rain
But no rain.
Perfect, cool molecules,
Layer on layer,
Air sitting on air.

But after, I couldn’t find you.
I couldn’t find you
In the heavy-sitting valleys,
Behind the cool barriered hedges
With stone guard dogs,
In the palm shadowed boulevards
Or the canyon mazes.
I couldn’t find you
In the final exhalations of space,
On sun baked, cracked cement plaza drives.
I couldn’t find you
In the starkly lined avenues
Amongst the serious-expressioned manikins.

It really is a desert here, huh?
Had said the pale cheeked waiter from Wisconsin
While we waited for you to come back.
Yes, I thought, touching the sweating water glass.
A stage set in a desert
Filled with mirages and promises
And doors that no one answers
And roads that curve toward the sun.
We both knew you weren’t coming back.

I won’t find you again
But I will keep looking
And looking
And looking.
There is always that chance.
Yes, to find someone like you.
That chance.
I leave alone,
Tip under plate.
A dog barks at my steps,  
Waits, barks again.

We are both close, 
Yet impossibly, 
Far from home.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Ekwobi Avatar
May 2, 2022 at 3:08 AM
Whoever wishes to singularly describe Douglas Brown's Los Angeles as 'Splendid' must use Block Capitals ... Nothing in the poem is rushed between supplies of facts and releases of feeling about the Tricky in Celebrated Los Angeles.
Brown Avatar
May 2, 2022 at 10:03 AM
Thank you so much Chinedum. So great to have your words on this poem.
Phipps Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 9:48 AM
Wow, Douglas. I don’t often come along a poem that grips me like this one. You are an exceptional writer and this poem creates a deep feeling of a missed opportunity, and the deep longing to rediscover the possibilities of what could be with someone new. I absolutely felt stirred by it. Thank you!!!
Brown Avatar
April 30, 2022 at 2:57 PM
Lori, thank you so much. It really mean a lot to get your feedback. Doug
Trimble Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 6:55 AM
Hi Douglas. "Los Angeles" is a really fine poem. Thanks so much for posting it. You achieve a remarkable feat of being both conversational and visionary. As a reader, I can join the experience you create and complete a picture with my imagination. That's what makes great poetry, reminds me of Delmore Schwartz. Thanks, keep 'em coming Paul
Brown Avatar
April 30, 2022 at 2:57 PM
Thanks so much Paul!
Lamoureux Avatar
November 30, 2019 at 9:25 AM
You have been here a long time and I am just finding you now. What a treat to read your words.
Foster Avatar
June 7, 2019 at 6:26 PM
"Impossibly far..." I loved that... Ty. It was a great read.
Gauthier Avatar
February 8, 2018 at 7:30 PM
Douglas, you are so gifted at creating complete scenario and a particular atmosphere. Your talent is amazing. This poem is a FAVE. Awesome.
Lovejoy-Burton Avatar
January 3, 2018 at 2:03 PM
Beautiful but sad. Black Dog Barks.
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December 13, 2017 at 11:19 AM
Fantastic pen! Love it. Fave :)
Brown Avatar
November 21, 2018 at 2:28 PM
Thanks! Late on seeing this!
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