Living To Die

can't remember if it was the noise of life or the quiet of death that compelled me but i know i will never look back the moment is all i have each grain of sand falling almost imperceptibly into the hourglass... that's all i have it taunts me as it falls like it knows i can never get it back staring at me from the bottom of the glass amidst all those other moments I've wasted wasted sitting here 9 to 5 holding back biting my tongue suppressing my urges a laughable life a predictable one i need this new release this fear fear of the unknown that i keep constantly in front of me it's all i have should i die (let's hope i do) i die in peace peace only spontaneity and chaos can bring