Living In the Light

What a terrible toxic trip...this dark and devilish dream Every single turn I take leaves me more disturbed in disbelief I feel just like a leaf in a violent whirlwind Franticly my eyes they seek an exit...for me there is no end I thought I was so manly...a monster made of might Now I'm longing for the time when I was living in the light I used to covet the catch of criminals,crooks,and cons Their mansions forged in madness left me only wanting more More money and machines More women,wine,and whiskey...x-rays eyes and x-rated dreams More power and more problems More roller coaster rides with risk I had to pull the trigger on my final terror twist Everything once good and golden has turned rancid,raw,and ripe I search for stems and seeds of sin...left scraping that psychopathic pipe Now I'm longing for the time when I was living in the light Have I been forgotten? Forgiveness seems so far away Can I ever be a free man? Will I stay a slave? Rapid fire now in slow motion Repeating slow motion suicide Exsisting in this evil now I give it all to God Drowning in the darkness in desperation...at wishing wells I wish to die Now I'm longing for the time when I was living in the light Sharks they now surround me...appearing from thin air Serpents slither round me...they all smile and scoff and stare This place where no one cares This cold life has been a lie Now I close my eye lids tight...closed tighter than a coffin I press my hands together...harder than all the trash that I've been talking Satan now he stalks me as I take my final breath Till something just like sunshine creeps inside this dead mans mind A warmth washes over me...like nothing ever seen God turns those sharks into sushi He turns those serpents into string He sends Satan screaming in the night full of ugliness and unease He turns my paranoia into peace Now I walk in a lighted tunnel on that path to paradise Just like old times but so much better Now I'm living in the light