Living a Lie

I am not sad, but at the same time I am not happy You've made my life a living hell Brought nothing but despair and confusion Now you're gone and I am left with nothing, Nothing but an empty heart Which has never experienced true love I always thought it was normal Jelousy, obsession and clinginess Still, I remained by your side Thinking all guys had these traits I never had another lover Even though I was accused many times You were my first and probably my last Because of you I don't know what to do And now, I will never experience True love, True happiness Just true anguish, true deception