Lived a Lie

An ill-formed conception of life, is mine What once was truth, is now false What once was accepted, swiftly rejected What once was common belief is now something I must take back I watched my past float away in a cloud of smoke When I saw it in front of me Clear-cut, undoubtedly mine, I stared Wide eyed, confused, and awestruck That I had lived a lie Sitting in the dark, utter disbelief The blackness reflected my terror The feelings I felt were unreal, and yet I felt like there was a purpose I had a sense of purpose Looking blankly into a magazine paper, infused with incredibility Knowing I had lived a lie I had lived a lie I had lived comfortably Because what I thought was true Now I live in fear And in constant observation Because I had lived a lie