Little Concept, Big Thought
Little box warms me
Heat on my neck
But I don’t close the vent
I’d rather be hot, than feel nothing.
And inside it’s so dark
Turn my head right
All the lights
“Bear Down Bears”
Suddenly we’re so spirited
Wish we could be spirited about the right things.
So many people out there
How can we feel alone?
How can I be so lonely?
3 places to call home
But my heart is somewhere else
Maybe in the place I will be in the future
if I have a future.
Funny how God--
The concept is just funny
But God, he can take us away from this life
At any time
Like I’m the fly and He’s the newspaper
Swat my life away
At any time
I try to find what’s important to me
But I’m too afraid it will hurt me
So I build my wall
I can’t clean my room
But
I can build a wall.
All my insecurities are hidden behind it
Pieces are missing
But some pieces fit
Bill fits
I don’t want him to
He breaks my heart in two
He takes away my life sometimes
Sort of like how God can
But the difference is that I’m still stuck here
In this life
In a pool of days that I don’t want to wake up to
I hope those days don’t come to me again
I hope our love reaches us again
Here I am, babbling on
I could do this ‘til dawn
Buckingham Fountain, Navy Pier
Lakeshore Drive all out my window
But, everything is nothing if there is no smile
No “how was your day?”
No “are you doing okay?”
That’s the way of life
We don’t pay attention
So who’d care if I left?
I’m lacking so much self-concept
I need soul-searching
I need hard-core purchasing
The stress is so high I’m choking
Sirens going wild
I’m not even part of it
Sometimes I truly wish I could be
I will instigate a shove
So an eye is on me
So somebody will worry
That’s all I want in the end
Doesn’t everyone want a friend?
TV’s on the in the background
Typical girls’ room, nowhere to walk
I’m too broken to talk
Not capable to feel
But the heat blows on my neck
Letting me know that I’m here.
Copyright © Jaymi Hartman | Year Posted 2007
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