Little Concept, Big Thought

Little box warms me Heat on my neck But I don’t close the vent I’d rather be hot, than feel nothing. And inside it’s so dark Turn my head right All the lights “Bear Down Bears” Suddenly we’re so spirited Wish we could be spirited about the right things. So many people out there How can we feel alone? How can I be so lonely? 3 places to call home But my heart is somewhere else Maybe in the place I will be in the future if I have a future. Funny how God-- The concept is just funny But God, he can take us away from this life At any time Like I’m the fly and He’s the newspaper Swat my life away At any time I try to find what’s important to me But I’m too afraid it will hurt me So I build my wall I can’t clean my room But I can build a wall. All my insecurities are hidden behind it Pieces are missing But some pieces fit Bill fits I don’t want him to He breaks my heart in two He takes away my life sometimes Sort of like how God can But the difference is that I’m still stuck here In this life In a pool of days that I don’t want to wake up to I hope those days don’t come to me again I hope our love reaches us again Here I am, babbling on I could do this ‘til dawn Buckingham Fountain, Navy Pier Lakeshore Drive all out my window But, everything is nothing if there is no smile No “how was your day?” No “are you doing okay?” That’s the way of life We don’t pay attention So who’d care if I left? I’m lacking so much self-concept I need soul-searching I need hard-core purchasing The stress is so high I’m choking Sirens going wild I’m not even part of it Sometimes I truly wish I could be I will instigate a shove So an eye is on me So somebody will worry That’s all I want in the end Doesn’t everyone want a friend? TV’s on the in the background Typical girls’ room, nowhere to walk I’m too broken to talk Not capable to feel But the heat blows on my neck Letting me know that I’m here.