Like Shattered Glass

Every time I start to gain control everything around me starts to crumble, like glass everything starts to shatter into perfect little pieces to a puzzle, tears want to drown me yet I hold them back, not wanting to admit defeat, yet I know the times near, for my weakness to stab me in the back, like little sharp knives reopening all my wounds for the world to see, as my world crumbles into little pieces, I can't do anything but stare, how did I let it get like this? what could I of done?is there anything I can do to end this nightmare before it becomes too real, Like glass everything starts to shatter into perfect little pieces around me, now I realize it already is too real, so I wait, i wait for my tears to drown me, I wait for the time to admit defeat, I wait for my truest fear, that I'm somehow doomed to fail,