Light On the Devil's Chord - Day 33 -Part 1-

My dreams were of the dire Queen I had allowed her reign over me, callousing my heart, She was inside me, laughing Having crawled in My walls closing, as she filled my soul We were one, yes for a time, one Till the dozy drowse of new awakening, Chastised me softly into a new day Perplexed, though resolved and calm, I recalled amorous whispers in the dark It was from beside me, Not from a seething dragon's tongue, Yet surely the devil I had come to know, His voice like oiled silk in pensive glow, "Adore me just a little longer..." His words rang with a deathly beguiling tune It seemed that there was sorrow on the tongue A sorrow most attractive, a sorrow With an olden blend of hunger and malice... I awoke to see he had moved Far from the steamy opening, Further down he had inched his way toward where I lay... I heard no demon, nor Death's dark thrum, Nor Hades' incessant circling in the dirt I heard only my breaths and his own He was in the form I had met him in— Raging reptilian eyes opal in shine, and woody in age Protruding and strong, ivory teeth, Vociferous in bite, he had history there Shining like unashamed treasures Escaping from his mouth to feel the air His narrow head, craned to watch me A stout face befitting for a deity of agony An expression of pride and of beauty superfluous I traced it with my eyes, held it to the light Deep laughter escaped his angry lips In the air of hatred that one feels Like the shock of prophesied storms, He was filled with strange and sudden joy In his Prison of Plot Was I but his toy? “You cannot see good where it does not reside, So how can you be so sure of your own purity, In the temporary dwellings of my filth? I have seen your dreams, breathed them I wish for your reality to now wake Just as your fears seem to have nerve I know it there, oh Love, Your fire needs the winds of my desire.” I sighed, standing from the waters, Walking onto the shore of muck To stand before him, dripping with light “Dreams and nightmares shall not crush me, Devil Nor have they today but reinforced me, Your Lady Darkness has shed me some new understanding, Strangely, has shed some light on a personal, hidden truth That I have not yet thought of till today… See, I awoke, dear Prince, Without fear of losing myself, I awoke realizing my weaknesses… Why God has brought me here It all makes sense now why I love you! It all makes sense now how I must grow.” He waited for me to speak, colored perplexed He wished to understand, then to prey, plot, And then swallow Yet I continued, Knowing his evil friend within awaited “When I died, I was young and unafraid of my fate, I faced death with the courage near to Christ, And said goodbye to Life As one would to a friend they know they would see again soon Oh how I loved life, With all of my little, ingenuous heart, Yet I gave it up, Young and fruitful I was not like my grandfather To fall in the midst of war and pain Nor my father, wise, well read, and sensible Living a long and healthy life Though in the shadows of grief and loss I fell to the poisons, as you know, Closed my eyes and let the disease Take me to the resurrection To the Millennium, And ultimately, As was planned, to you…” He rested his hands in mine outstretched, Holding them softly Waiting for my point to be made “I was faithful to the end, But my development was prematurely halted God had planned instead a righteous growth Beyond human strength to endure After I had conquered mortality’s last breath I was faithful, I was loving, But I was still naïve, To the Lord’s liking But He saw depth and he saw a chance for destruction As, on my death bed, I wrote to you My humble questions and my rightful thoughts And God saw no evil intentions in my ink, But a searching heart needing clear answers… He meant for me to grow out of the naivety To complete my aptitudes, So that I would come willingly to heal, With tried honor and knowledge approved.. When Lady Darkness spoke to me the other day, She helped me realize that my naivety is very much alive My thirst, childlike, still shines My need to save, fervent and impelling She, disguised as a reconciling demon, Poured honey on my heartstrings, She tested my love for her cruel purpose In that moment, your lying Lady played her feminine evils Near to my harmonies, Our soprano voices in blasphemous blend Adding her distinctive tunes so tempting to trace, So tempting to reproduce… God allowed the disease to take me So that my hope, My naivety thrived, A weakness, and a gift, Both growing and strengthening now, Here Tried and trusted, With you.” Note: part 1 and 2 of this section of the epic are meant to be unified