Lifetime of Chaos

When I was 16 I lost my best friend I started to grind, smoking weed and drinking Hennessee 'n' Gin Then my clientele blew up I'm 16 making bands feelin' like I grew up Poppin' pills and chewin' em' up Buying pounds of mid as I really started movin' up At 17 I had hustled up a selection of drugs like methamphetamines and ecstacy, let's get geeked up and come and roll with me Everybody is high as we can be And we all know it's me- Yes we all know it's because of me Choppin' up lines, Drinkin' up, Smokin' dro till we can't hardly see My sexy chick blowin' good with me Now I'm 20 and my best friend gets shot in the head 2nd homie dead Still getting a whole lotta bread Now I'm really getting wasted with 6 different drugs coursing through my body so the tears don't shed Then a overdose takes me to deaths doorstep, but I stayed alive I kept on getting live so I could make it to see 25 This is where I lost my ex who is the closest person that I had, now she's gone What is going on? She was the one who took my virginity After sex she would just lay next to me Now she has died She's no longer by my side This is just the beginning to my life and it's a bumpy ride I just like to keep them in my rhymes and poems Because my heart still knows em' Do you see why I get high and take these blunts and twist em' My trunks beating with 3000 watts in my system I was getting as high as I wanna be while I made my profits rise So high I feel like lead with my pain in disguise Moving on to the times that made me, to the times that paid me To the times that I made me free These are the days that really paid me At this point I'm 27 and I'm making 2 stacks a week Then all of a sudden I was blessed with the best gift I could ever speak My daughter was born and I was the first one to kiss her cheek The power of that feeling was my peak After 3 years of playing and teaching with my little girl she was ripped from me Because I got pistol whipped and beaten, then it was 5 years of her life that slipped from me I have had a hell of a time gripping that reality These are some of the days of my life I never skip a day thinking about I never ever had a drought Bands still coming in and I'm lost on my route Years of downing more drugs than I should No headlights while I'm following this dark road while I get as numb as I could Memories of my little girl were constantly in replay, thinking about building lego castles with her as we would play That's a hole I'm glad I got out of I'm never letting go of her smile everyday Just getting out of prison And the world is way worse than when I went in The war on drugs has failed and addiction is at a all time high Try to envision a society of regulation A society where every member has participation Not a society ruled by courts, prisons, and probation This only benefits a small percentage The answers to this problem lie within our past and it will become a beautiful image Take the power from our corrupt people of society I promise I am not the one who has made generations of lies so you cannot see I promise I am not the one who has lied to thee Let freedom ring, just let us be and you will see!!!