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Life Without Mom

Why do I have all these bad thoughts in my head, the worst one of all is wishing I were dead. Every morning I wake up the thoughts are still there, the more I sit and think about them,the more I just don't care. I have been trying hard,for things to be the way they should, maybe if I didn't care so much for once in my life I could. My MOM was always number one in my life,but now that she is gone, it has been hard for me to be able to move on.

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Connie Gildersleeve

Date: 6/8/2013 3:46:00 PM

Colleen congratulations on your win. Warm Hugs, Connie

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 6/8/2013 11:49:00 AM

Colleen, a super win... extra love...Linda

Monterey Sirak

Date: 6/8/2013 10:14:00 AM

Congratulations on your win. Lovely poem.

Nathan D.

Date: 6/7/2013 8:29:00 PM

thank you

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 4/14/2013 10:34:00 PM

Hi Colleen, i am touched by your poem. I love my biological mom so so much... even though she gave me up for adoption... i miss her every day... At first I found it tough to move on.. This poem and thoughts are so sad. This is an old poem, so I'm hoping as a friend the feeling of hoping to be dead are gone... mothers are always #1... xox~ Linda

Billy Thekidster

Date: 3/16/2010 9:58:00 AM

Loss of true loved ones has also crippled me into deep states of depression constantly. but we'll all join them soon enough eventually. No one lives forever and in that sense it comforts me, but I'll be one day with my lost loved ones sure enough. Until then I'll fight my depression. I'll try to stay tuff. Great Write Colleen. Best Wishes Always, Bill

James Fraser

Date: 2/21/2010 2:35:00 PM

Colleen, you will be moving on with your extended family, us the Soup. We may be far and wide, but not to far to listen, because when we read your poems, the words from your heart, they glisten. We are here for you Colleen >> James

Laura Evans

Date: 2/4/2010 6:19:00 AM

I also lost my mom and best friend. It was very hard at first but now i just talk to her. I'm not a fruitcake but it helps just to imagine her by my side, still giving me advice (not always what i want to hear) but I keep her with me always. Hope this helps. I found writing is the best tool to let it out..don't keep it inside. Wonderful poem. Thank you.

Debbie Guzzi

Date: 2/3/2010 6:40:00 PM

Honey you are writing different forms you just don't know their names. This verse is a COUPLET just move she's gone to line 7..FORM COUPLET

Shain Endicott

Date: 2/3/2010 11:36:00 AM

yea i found her and i love her with all my heart she is the best to how are you

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 2/2/2010 3:05:00 PM

Colleen, I am sorry you are feeling this way. Good write for telling us your feelings. Time heals all wounds, and I will hope that happens soon for you. LUv, Andrea

Simone Segal

Date: 2/1/2010 2:00:00 AM

Hi Colleen, I know it's hard to bear the loss of your mum, but hold the thought of her love and wisdom shining down on you, when negitivity trys to grab you, BAN IT! swop it for a positive thought, (your dreams, your desires, your mum!) YOU are in controll, form a habit of doing this, and see negitive thoughts slip away, do this for me Colleen, your friend always, Simone

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 1/31/2010 3:50:00 PM

Thankxxx for your precious comments my friend Colleen and NO I will not leave ...that is over... at least not on my own ..this time.. glad u enjoyed my latest poem.. I posted so many new writes today.. and check out Marty Owens .. we co wrote The Vision of a Valentine and he posted it on his list of poems and I have posted a new blog about the poem too.. check it out.. thankxxx for your amazing friendship..luv.. Linda-Marie..

Scarlett Sepulvado Anderson

Date: 1/30/2010 12:59:00 PM

This is soooo sad. Keep writing. The release of letting yourself express yourself in writing is your sweet release.

Derrick Burton

Date: 1/30/2010 9:19:00 AM

Enjoyed and hope everything is cool... Enjoy your weekend. :)

John Freeman

Date: 1/30/2010 8:40:00 AM

Mom did her best for you I am sure Colleen. While she was here in natural form, but she has liquified now into the amazing state of love's paranormal realm. She can still communicate with you through Love's spirit. God bless you, fro you are also God's Love, sincerely, Love Moses

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 1/29/2010 7:47:00 PM

Read my new poem.. Returning Home... my friend.. I AM BACK....Linda-Marie with blessings.. and luv...

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 1/29/2010 8:52:00 AM

Thankxxx Colleen for your recent comment... think I will be joining another site which some of soup poets have already joined .. many are protesting my leaving but management has sided with those poets who complained and made a big stink out of Three Way Collaboration.. five poets have left already with more to come because of this incident.. read the blogs page.. u will see the reactions... read the comments on Jared's poem for more insight into this mess... will let u know where I am..luv..

Douglas Ace

Date: 1/28/2010 2:36:00 PM

Losing some one close to you is NEVER easy. I know. But you just continue to look at the family you have around you right here through the providence of God. Soup mail. Lightwalker

Jeralynn Clark

Date: 1/28/2010 7:14:00 AM

Wow Colleen, very introspective and revealing. I lost my Mom last Feb.11. We are now Our Mothers! That's how it works...She taught you how to be strong! Thanks for the comments! Love & Hugs Jeralynn

Doris Culverhouse

Date: 1/28/2010 3:51:00 AM

Sad,

Sara Kendrick

Date: 1/28/2010 3:43:00 AM

Loosing someone close to you is very difficult. I am sorry about the death of your mother. Grief takes time and each person grieves in their own time and own way. Don't let it get you down. Write about it and talk about it to someone. Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my work. Sara

Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen

Date: 1/28/2010 3:02:00 AM

Colleen, I am very sorry about the loss of your mom. Sometimes the mourning process is almost unbearable. But with prayer, focus on learning from God, and giving service to others, in time, it will become less painful. SUGGESTION TO TRY: When you wake up and the bad thoughts are in your head. Chase them away with out loud scripture reading or by singing your favorite song over and over if needed. You are loved by many here on the soup. So, HANG IN THERE and pray a lot. Lovingly, Dane Ann

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 1/27/2010 9:52:00 PM

This is good writing from you, Colleen. And I really hope you can feel happiness in your heart. Luv,Andrea

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 1/27/2010 8:09:00 PM

My sentiments exactly.. thankxxx for this real life poetry.. when I lost my Mom it was like the world eneded that day and no one has filled that void in my heart.. very emotional poetry tonight.. am going to send u Soup Mail in a few minutes.. luv.. Linda-Marie