Life

What are these lights that I see? Things in my head that can't agree. Like tunnels to a new dark place. I'm so scared and alone, I can't see anyone's face. Takes away from what I am supposed to enjoy. I feel so helpless like a little boy. I now have things to make them stop. Can't mix it because it will make me drop. One fateful night I did things wrong. I feel less and less strong. This incredible feeling coming over me. In a little bit I will be gone. An uncontrollable belief that I'm going to die. I look at my girl as she begins to cry. she keeps me going and going. My eyes wide open she gets my blood flowing. Things racing through my mind. I didn't mean to but this pain and fear in her. This wasn't supposed to occur. The look in my friends eyes with such sorrow. I just hope I am here to see the ones I love tomorrow. The look in eyes I'll never forget it. I know what he is feeling and will not quit. My parents that I let down. They now down on me with a frown. The feel of death lay upon me. All I can do is pray to God and plea. It's strange but I've had this feeling before. Somewhere maybe in my dreams, reaching for heavens door. It feels like I am waking up from this bad dream. All I want to do is scream. No matter what anybody says, I seen the devils face. Said sorry, but this is not my place. My life that I now hold in my hand. All of it now in my command. A new found respect that I hold. That will be forever untold. My wonderful life.