Lies

LIES A web that has no ending For I can not stop Even though I try Something is wrong with me Because my judgement is blinded And I can not see Every time I make the promise To quench the desire to mislead It only adheres for a short moment Until the web starts to bleed The deciet of my words My voice has no truth It is an addiction A never ending piercing thorn It is like a paper cut That always hurts to the touch And I am that paper cut That hurts everyone I touch Why can't I control this monster inside It is destroying my very being It is grasping my loved ones by the heart Tearing their view of me completely apart I wish that this was just a dream That this is not as bad as it seems And that I am not pushing everyone away Acceptance is my aime To be looked upon higher Eventhough, I have everything I have always visioned This thing still wants to feed I have tried so many times to depress it So many promises and pleads To the one above Whom I know that shows only love The one who can crush this irritating bug It yearns so badly to come alive That I can not contain it Eventually, it slowly engulfs my soul Like fumes from a old kerosene heater Taking away my breath Some days I try to start a fresh But, within hours and without even knowing Out comes my darkened words My mind has no control I Have No Control Only Lies have Control