Lie To Live

You ask for the truth How can I tell when I can’t differentiate between the truth and lies I’ve created a world in which I somehow can find tolerance to live in For myself, a simple way to be able to breathe The rest I keep bottled up inside I speak my heart; but you don’t hear my words anymore I tell the truth; you don’t seem to care Living a farce seems to be the only way to survive For such a long time I longed, I hoped Until there was no hope left, only lies I kept telling; you didn’t’ register anymore I struggled to breathe; choking in lies Slowly falling apart; bit by bit Until nothing was left I couldn’t recognize myself anymore Couldn’t see the truth in living No use in pretending anymore This wall I built around me, became my salvation It’s become my saving grace; lie to live The only way I knew how to survive this After all that’s been said and done in the past now I turn my collar to the wind; trying to forgive, to forget Turning to face an uncertain future I’m so afraid, fear choking me All I ask is to release me, to set me free Wanting to break free, needing to regain myself Longing to breathe without barriers Begging for mercy, for some understanding I see the hurt and anger in your eyes Tears roll down my cheeks too, I’m not unscaved As I walk away, it’s the last time I’ll apologize You saw my demons, you knew my weakness But it was all too much, you chose to walk away All is left is emptiness around my heart Hurt, loneliness, sadness and pain I don’t want to live in any shadow anymore No more lies, only truth No more tears, only joy No more anger, only peace No more lying to live For the last time I’m breaking this chain A lightness surrounding my being Somehow I don’t care anymore Freedom of my past, freedom of my demons, sadness and anger You’ll never hurt me again Finally I’m free to live my live Living for the truth, only the truth from now on