Liability

what’s mine will come, but what could’ve been haunts me, falling has every chance to be beautiful; but all the flowers grew back as thorns. the most beautiful type of fear- hope, when trust is broken- sorry means nothing to me, i could tell you i deserve better, because i know for a fact that i do, ignoring the truth for temporary happiness- life is infinitely infinite. everything is supposed to fall into place, forever until the end i suppose, replaced my brain with my heart- signed a liability with the devil. they promised me it would all make sense again, but i’m losing everything i’ve ever known, i exist in nothing but the moments, doubt does not deserve me; you do not deserve me. how could i forget i am capable? i was robbed of every star i caught, hell is empty and they stand in my life, why is it that chaos is my only friend? i wanna feel all of the emotion, how do i think when im surrounded by clouds- bleeding from the top- what’s mine still has yet to come.