Letting Go

When I look in the mirror I don't see me; I see him. Only, I still see the eyes of terror. When I begin to fall asleep, I see that picture I gave to him. I know it's one he'll always keep. We got off to the funniest start. I'll always reminisce on that day, It is a memory that warms my heart. He just has that one walk, smile, and hug That makes me so happy and proud. Like a father, he makes me feel safe and snug. But, before you know it, the smile becomes a lie; The hug becomes a forgotten visit. Is it so hard just to come by? Lie after lie, I tell the story in which he starred. It's difficult enough to trust you at all! I need to let go! Why is it so hard?