Let Go
I had to let her go
It was beyond my control
I wanted to keep her
I guess for my own selfish reasons
Sometimes I want to press rewind
I should've made her mine
But now I'm a father
I have responsibilities
I have a daughter
I couldn't give her what she needed
I couldn't give her what she deserved,
Even though she never pleaded.
When I met her she was so full of energy
But over time, I realized I was no good for her
I changed her...
He changed me
Before him I was full of life
He awakened other things in me
Doubt, insecurity, jealousy
Those just aren't me
But I loved him
He was all that I knew
So I thought loving him was something I had to do
He hurt me plenty
I forgave him many
But it still didn't work
So I had to let him go
Again I said I had to let her go
It aches knowing she will end up with someone who isn't me
I've made this decision
I've made my own prison
She gave me life
She gave me energy
But now I see I took that from her
I left her empty
But ironically, to this day, she still holds a piece of me
He still holds a piece of me
Even though God has made me whole again
He holds a piece that no other guy can ever get
It contains our happy times
Video games, late nights
Good times
But something he won't have is me
Who I am now
The woman I'm meant to be
Yes, he changed me
Because with him, I lost myself
Now I'm found
All the pain, confusion, lies
It's all worth it
I hope it's worth it
I hope my daughter grows up right because I stayed
I hope I can find a happiness like her in my daughter's mom
I'm trying
But sometimes I feel like I'm lying
Because my daughter's mom will never be like her
I can't expect her to be
I wish the woman of my dreams the best
I missed out
I missed out...
He missed out
But thanks to him letting me go
I am ready for the man of my dreams.
Strong, stable, steady
And don't forget funny
And last but not least...
Someone who will never give up on me.
Copyright © Lauren Mccoy | Year Posted 2015
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