Left Alone

everywhere i go is wherever i call home but never am i someone elses im just dust in the wind, waiting for an end ever sense birth ive felt abandonments cold here a few years there a few years to and fro but never a solid home i tried finding a soulmate or whatever but that just lead me down a dark path drunken and severed never am i someones one love no never not even in a brothers bond cursed am i to tread in solitude forever now im falling further down and just wish to peacefully drowned in my solitude where, myself, i found broken hearted and left alone time and time again truly i would be lying if i said it wasnt getting old seems this is my fate to be stuck to be only my own as the darkness takes on and holds i dont seem to care anymore i disconnect why even try anymore im always left alone so i mark where im scarred with tattoos that leak out of all ive known my dominate left arm, the left, thats left alone guess its a sin but least i know God was the only one who really always picked up the phone.. still though i wont deny i still feel very alone all i hoped for was for one person to keep me and never let me me go. and maybe, just maybe.. she exists and one day i can feel at home but i cease to try anymore.. because i cant give anymore until i know i wont be left alone