Left

Don't let her know, for she may delight, as I bend and I twist and I snap in the night, and in the daytime I hide while I gag and I choke, on the memories of her that lag and evoke. I told her enough things that were inside my head, and I wish and I wish and I wish I was dead, somehow alive yet bereft of the essence, maybe when I am gone she will again feel my presence. It hurts to think that she would never know, I have died deep inside and I want to let go, of the breathing and waking and terrible dreams, leave me seething and shaking thru inaudible screams. I cant even find happiness when I sleep, my dreams are invaded, creep creep creep, sometimes I dream we're together again, but its ruined by seeing her with other men. I'm cruelly cut off and just left here to wither, no message, no visit, no speaking, no bother, she's either the one or an incredible liar, but to her I'm sure I've already expired. I'm such a fool, I wait and I wait, I am noble, and loyalty is my biggest trait, but she doesn't want me and hides like a coward, as she sits on her throne I built, I hope she is proud. You took this man and turned his life upside down, now my life is stinking and fetid and brown, I will end it soon when I have my way, and you'll wish and you'll wish you had seen me that day.