Leaving You
~***Part Two of Vanish Away the Anguish series…read Part One, Holding You, if you haven’t done so! Thanks***~
I’m not sad, okay? Would rather be smiling day to day
With gladness and happiness in addition
To satisfaction to the max…I need to really relax and pray
Where are dem lovable men and women?
I’m incredibly, strangely spooked
How much you’ve overlooked
Our love affairs and friendship
Come on, get a big and strong grip
It’s horrendous…
I tend to forget what to write
All will be alright…today and tonight
Wish I could be like you, so bright
So…marvelous!
Oh, what happened between us?
Remind me to catch my be-happy bus
You and I need to move on honestly
It hurts me to say it, but it's meant to be
Inspired unbearably by everything and such
I need so much spiritual faith and physical touch
I know I was selfish…
Sorry, I made a wish…
Love would find me in an outlandish place at my utmost best..
Hate found me unfortunately in my worst, most-abashing moments
It’s like these mood swings and emotions of oceans won’t rest
So manic and acting idiotic and maniac-like…missing your presence…
Shadows of shame haunt me and consume me so
You don’t know me to the extreme…you don’t know…
Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Taste me? Feel me?
Smell me too, maybe?
Hopefully and passionately
Clean my dirty, gutter cranium…hum away the dumb
That buries inside me
Make me feel completely happy
Never get out of me
Rub away the numb by pressing on my pleasure plum
Rub it all away now possibly..
Breathing air of darksome despair…
You don’t care, you weren’t there
To help me in my sorrowful hardships
I will invest in my other friendships
So, I’m leaving you thirsty and empty…
Since you didn’t unchain me happily
Sucks to be you in my point of view…sick of the abuses and the many bruises
I was a bird in your cage, dying to be free
I chirped and chirped to be out of captivity
I want to avoid my void of paranoid muses…untie these tightening nooses…
You have no right to judge me without any evidence of my wrongs…only God can judge my every rights and wrongs
I’m leaving you lonesome in your so-called life of wholesome perfection
It’s amazing how many songs I wrote due to the past and present…need to belong amongst writing some songs…
It sucks that you had to desert me in the dust, vulnerable due to rejection
You messed me up so good
Yes, you did and it was rude
I need the attitude of gratitude
Instead of being out in the negativity, ashamed and nude
Will you hear me out from being misunderstood?
Will you heal me and conquer me completely like you should?
Fulfill my fantasies and freedom-flaring, getting me on my knees
I will do what you please
If you do the same at ease
So, stop being a dorky tease
Vanish away my anguish
Vanish away my anguish
I’m sorry that I was selfish
Vanish away my anguish
Vanish away my anguish
In this angst and remorse,
I relish, really out of course
Demolish my despair all the way today
Turn the nightfall to a sunrise day by day
Don’t make me upset…(let me get as much joy as I can get)
Also, be my surreally lovely, silhouetted sunset
Be my overall, optimistic-oriented outlet
To release the tension of regret…it’s difficult to interpret the stress the debt got me into, I bet
Turn the terribleness around and morph it to something great…make it like the first day we met
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018
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