Leaving Love
i am not the sun, nor will my light bring existence.
all i've ever known of love is how to get lost in it.
i always go the distance, even if i go too far.
your face made me think of eternity
but baby, you didn't want me.
i think i went too far.
when will it be clear
that this isn't a dream?
the love was real. no matter what you say.
no matter what i say.
you thought maybe we lived the same lives
over and over again.
no changes, no improvements.
i felt my heart breaking a hundred years back
over and over again.
you thought i was boring
because i wanted us forever.
if you want to leave,
then it's probably for the better
because i never know
when you're gone for good
and i'd wait an eternity for the answer.
i know you like to linger
and be the bad news bringer
informing me, it's happening again.
just don't come back when there's no one new.
please don't come back when you're lonely
because my mind doesn't change about you,
and I'd get my own heart broken.
it's not about the pretty words anymore.
it's not about much at all.
so, i never say a thing
as the songs we used to sing
still linger on my tongue.
it's been far too long,
and i can't keep from missing you,
the one thing i was hopeful for.
he wouldn't tell me
but by the sounds of it
you haven't been an angel.
and i would never ask you
but i'm dying to know.
do you think i'm strong enough to love you
with a cavity for a heart?
or do you think i'm hardened to the core
and too much to endure?
i said i was quite evil...
now do you believe me?
when will it be clear
that this isn't a dream?
love me when i least deserve it.
i least deserve it now.
give me anything but an end,
i don't care how.
just make a home for me,
mine is getting shallow.
it wasn't up to me in the end,
i never wanted to say goodbye.
don't get so close to me
to leave me high and dry.
leaving love, you've made your bed.
it's time to lay down alone.
leaving love marks in my head
but i won't throw you a bone.
now, you're gone and it's so clear
i've been sleeping away my love.
Copyright © Evelyn Rose | Year Posted 2018
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