Leaving Love

i am not the sun, nor will my light bring existence. all i've ever known of love is how to get lost in it. i always go the distance, even if i go too far. your face made me think of eternity but baby, you didn't want me. i think i went too far. when will it be clear that this isn't a dream? the love was real. no matter what you say. no matter what i say. you thought maybe we lived the same lives over and over again. no changes, no improvements. i felt my heart breaking a hundred years back over and over again. you thought i was boring because i wanted us forever. if you want to leave, then it's probably for the better because i never know when you're gone for good and i'd wait an eternity for the answer. i know you like to linger and be the bad news bringer informing me, it's happening again. just don't come back when there's no one new. please don't come back when you're lonely because my mind doesn't change about you, and I'd get my own heart broken. it's not about the pretty words anymore. it's not about much at all. so, i never say a thing as the songs we used to sing still linger on my tongue. it's been far too long, and i can't keep from missing you, the one thing i was hopeful for. he wouldn't tell me but by the sounds of it you haven't been an angel. and i would never ask you but i'm dying to know. do you think i'm strong enough to love you with a cavity for a heart? or do you think i'm hardened to the core and too much to endure? i said i was quite evil... now do you believe me? when will it be clear that this isn't a dream? love me when i least deserve it. i least deserve it now. give me anything but an end, i don't care how. just make a home for me, mine is getting shallow. it wasn't up to me in the end, i never wanted to say goodbye. don't get so close to me to leave me high and dry. leaving love, you've made your bed. it's time to lay down alone. leaving love marks in my head but i won't throw you a bone. now, you're gone and it's so clear i've been sleeping away my love.