Leave Me In the Dark

Shared attention, maybe I am more lost than I thought here separate me, cut me up into a hundred different pieces I'm already being pulled into a hundred different directions Why can't it all stop if for a moment let it all stop enough to capture these scattered thoughts brought to life running amok in this realm of living Can I have a moment to myself, a place of solitude and comfort can I have a small second to hide and be alone to escape this soap opera lifestyle and breathe collect the things I've lost in this scavenger hunt My promise, it's starting to crumble I promised to try, try harder than I ever have before be perfect, be this carbon copy model something out of a book, out of a movie but I'm made out of flesh and bone not paper and string How can I commit when I'd rather just be omitted Something shine on a right choice my judgement is failing and I could really use some guidance only one caveat if you will indulge me: Please don't tell me, don't say to me I need to give a much needed tour to the recesses of my world it'll just leave unanswered questions and heavy answers I don't need everyone know, not just yet that I am angry at no one...angry at everyone... AANGRY AT MYSELF! ! ! ! It's like I'm in a corner of a brightly in the room and an unknown hand silently turned off the light leaving me in the dark with a smirk and a glowing imprint on the wall 'We are all mad here' if that's true, than why am I the only one who exists in this dark cramped space breaking down this wall with my face to no avail....