Laughing

Am not laughing because of joy I am laughing because my life is a joke Last week I lost my bag with all my belongings Gone Gone with a stranger who posed as a motor bike cyclist Today I had to call my dad It's 5 am I tell him I don't have fare to work If we had time I'd tell him I don't have energy either no oil for my face Deo for my armpits Cologne for my skin Powder for my smelly feet Nor vision nor joy nor hope I have run out of a lot of things dad But I said thank you when he sent the money I hope it covers for all the chaos As a result of that night There are a lot of things I do not afford I cannot buy lunch or breakfast And peace has become a luxury too I remember it was a Friday night in January I saw him and admired his beauty I cried as I prayed I journal-ed about him About us I prayed about us And God answered say five months later When the feeling was gone And today I wish with all my heart I never met him I never said hi I just wish with all my heart i hadn't been that enchanted Now am stuck here with a boomerang of a boring rebellious person who won't leave me the heck alone I wish with all my heart for him to stop diffuse and disappear How does this phone call go Hi dad, am running out of life ... Wish me luck