Landlock Blues

you still seeps from my pores...... i can still smell you on my skin in my hair; you're every where yet.. you're nowhere to be found gone vanished like you died im still haunted by every single though of you every second every day from our very first kiss to our last its burned into my mind you made it like that... touched me so deeply when i looked into your eyes it felt real was it real ? or my false delusions yet again you walked away its time for me to do the same i wont promise i wont look back its hard enough to just take the first step questions blur my vision i gave you everything i could my heart my body my soul and it still wasn't enough to make you stay ? was she really better than me ? or did you love her more then me? did you love me at all ? i wasted my time putting in effort building molding our relationship for you to leave me in the dead of night i never cheated i never lied i always loved you i always did you just right i even now pray for you to come back to me to feel me like you once did to touch me like im yours i wish i could cry but yet i can't the hole you made in my heart is a constant ache thats what i get for loving with an open heart for trusting a man too much I don't know if it was a good thing to have met you; so drawn to you i was like a moth to flame i experienced love in its realist form and for that im thankfull but it also didn't last left me broken into millions of pieces i don't know if love is real or maybe it all must end ... or maybe i been broken and you just held me together that i may never know ................