Kicked Through

Knock knock I kept knocking at addictions door Each knock feeling as if only they were knocked Days turned to weeks with little to no progress I kept knocking at the door so well locked Failure after failure I became its expert I’ll try my elbows at this door so blocked Do I ask for help or do I seek wisdom in thyself? I throw my whole body at the door only to get mocked One day I tell myself this door will loosen up I try to knock softer in this never-ending deadlock 6 months go by I begin to stop myself before blackout Still the door remains but it doesn’t seem so landlocked Another three months I dwell in shame Turning to prayer I fear God sees me as King of Gawk Faith is all I have left to throw at the door Then one day I no longer feel mocked Finally a year later later I regain my goal of goals Persistence and faith finally made this door unlocked