Kick Rocks

The pain never fading, even after time knowing that this is all mine everyone telling me I'd be fine the emotional scars are gone with a flash dashing out the door craving more going for another ride having no pride I take another blast pushing it all back I put it down, I pick it up it's getting me, it's taking over inhaling before exhaling I just can't be satisfied each hit making me crave another a deeper harder hit my eyes wide open, my hands shaking while I'm sitting scraping for more the flame slowly dying as I get down to the last of my sanity knowing in a few it will be insanity the only annoyance is the clicking of the lighter frantically crawling on the floor hoping to find a little more looking for someone who is cooking cooking up my sanity I pack it down I push it tight I savor my hit with all my might coming down soon what an awful sight at this moment I feel free and unbound I can't see I can't feel the ground I am numb I exhale looking pale now feeling empty I have the urge to hit it again do I live it or leave it, now I feel the seperation axiety inside of me