Keep On Keeping On

Theres a world, that is not mine, People live there, so fine. I wish I could fit in there, along side of you, but I just dont think, with my way of life, I could do. I hide myself all day, I'm so scared of the night, I want to be normal, I wish I was alright. my heart races fast, I cant breath at all, please someone hear me, through this brick wall. My head thumps so loud, my body wont stop shaking, I'm losing control of my mind, why is it breaking?. Am I really gifted?, or is this a bad curse, everything around me is making it worse. Faces turn to monsters, sounds hurt my ears, I've been living like this for 38 years. I'll get better, I know, I hope and I pray, for these ADHD symptoms to start to ease away. The feeling of despair is a regular guest, Ill put make up on and try to look my best. But the mask sometimes slips, and people can see, the pain, the fear, the worry, the unhappy real me. I'll leave you with this, as I carry on my day, with the fake smiles and laughs, in my theatrical way. deep breaths for me, as I am a mother, got to keep on keeping on, for no one, ill bother.