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Just To Love You

Why must I go through the fiery deep just to love you
Endure unjust actions
Why did you love me in the first place
Yes I know that life and love offer no guarantees
I just know what I am worth
Then you send me through the fiery deep
an I forget my worth and meaning
I loose sight of myself loving you
Making excuses for why you do what you do to me
Although your punches were never physical they are still painful
and take much longer to heal
Did you just forget my meaning as a women as a person
Once upon a time you were my protector
and now I need protection from you
from the love that you give me 
I wish that my love was as easy to turn off as it was to turn on
How did I allow you to be so convincing
The signs were always there
Your words hypnotize me and I forget the reasons why
I am in tears, pain an unhappy
I have taken your lies
I have taken your absenteeism 
To the point that I hate myself
I can’t stand the rain
It is constant down pours of emotions
Because of you I will never be the same inside
My words bounce around the room
Due to the fact that you constantly ignore them
I am screaming because you hear nothing else
You were suppose to be the one
The one, the one
We were suppose to be better than this
I remember when life never got me down
because my head was in the clouds
I had someone special to come home to
To talk too
A friend 
A love
Who thought of me
We had an unreachable connection
And now I can't see the good in you anymore
Nor do I really want to
It’s funny how life is
Like how one bad thing can out weigh a million good things
So finally I have just had enough
It is to the point where the bad out weighs the good
Love is to beautiful for me to continue in a relationship
where it is taken for granted, mistreated, misused and love, just isn’t love 
anymore

Copyright © Timeka Chaney | Year Posted 2005

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