"just Once"

"Just Once" what I've learned in life is this love is really just a game it's wanting and desire but not acting as if just once I wish I didn't associate love with pain just once I wish love wasn't about playing some head games just once I wish the person I wanted, wanted me too and it was a possibility something that could come true I keep going back and forth to whether it's you that I want I keep going back and forth to whether it's me that you want all the love I've known have always been accompanied by hurt all love that I was shown always eventually seems to convert longing into spite desire fills with pride causing more heartache and grief leaving love to subside no longer do I have the strength to forever endure no longer do I have the will as my life's now a blur of instances and memories I wish I could put away locked in a chest and finally left at bay